These are the secret sayings that the living Jesus spoke and Didymos Judas Thomas recorded.
1. And he said, “Whoever discovers the interpretation of these sayings will not taste death.”
2. Jesus said, “Those who seek should not stop seeking until they find. When they find, they will be disturbed. When they are disturbed, they will marvel, and will reign over all. [And after they have reigned they will rest.]”
3. Jesus said, “If your leaders say to you, ‘Look, the (Father’s) kingdom is in the sky,’ then the birds of the sky will precede you. If they say to you, ‘It is in the sea,’ then the fish will precede you. Rather, the (Father’s) kingdom is within you and it is outside you.
When you know yourselves, then you will be known, and you will understand that you are children of the living Father. But if you do not know yourselves, then you live in poverty, and you are the poverty.”
In verse 2 Jesus said,
“Those who seek should not stop seeking until they find. When they find, they will be disturbed. When they are disturbed, they will marvel, and will reign over all. [And after they have reigned they will rest.]”
I remember when after seeking for years to understand what the blazes was going on in my life because things were very bad at a stage in my life, it was so bad that my family members disowned and disavowed me, I was more or less (and probably still am) the black sheep of the family. I could not understand what was going on. But after “finding” self I was disturbed, I was so disturbed that I went to see a doctor taking cognizance of all my mysterious experiences I narrated just a few of my experiences and he thought I needed medication to suppress whatever it was, but he felt I may refuse it and I did refuse any numbing medications because I knew the experiences I had were real.
Same way another so called prophet asked me to burn some feathers because he saw while he was praying the heavens open up and saw some things (I would not want to narrate here.as that one is personal ) Of course I refused to do his ritual because I had a waning revelation not to do it moreover that was not the first time I had encountered such people.
But how can you explain to someone that you have had apparitions from Angelic beings , who prophesied to you that you are meant to bring about a new narrative to the world and as Moses and Isaiah asked who will believe our report?
How can you explain to people that you hear music not of this world or smell fragrances not of this world?
How can you explain to people what you see in the Spirit even though you try to veil it as much as possible so as not to cast attention or whatever it is on yourself no matter how hard you try some people don’t understand and when you try to keep it to self because you are exasperated you are given spiritual beating and severely reprimanded by those who sent you.
Some people may think you have gone bunkers but those where the kind of experiences I had growing up as a child and even when things were roughest or at my worst moments, that’s when the experiences occurred the most, more like a reminder and then the Spirit of God will take over.
It took me a long time to come to terms with myself because i did not have a good childhood, it was really bad, so bad that I was disavowed and then this lead to self doubts despite all the dreams, visions and revelation which were continuously given to me, however, I thank God for the different pastors, prophets and good friends and wife who saw through the veil what I was trying to shy away from and who have helped and encouraged me along the way. I remain grateful to them. Jesus said that God can use anything and anyone to proclaim God’s kingdom among men. I am simply a vessel and I am grateful for it.
So you can imagine if I had taken medication to suppress my gifts, or visions, I would be no one, maybe a zombie because I did not realize myself. Well, now that I have grown to know, there is so much I have to say and do. I pray for His strength, courage and good health. Amen
May God’s name be blessed for the realization of self and to help others do the same.
My alias “The Roving Messenger” and insignia of an incarnated and ascending Angel is not for fun. It was revealed and realized.